Manali, Can't forget the love and care you gave me!!

It is been so long I wanted to do so many things but I was stuck like anything!!! What I am doing?? Not sure...FINALLY I decided i should take some break so I was planning to pack up and leave....(not forever)!!!
Suddenly I got a call, Hey it's Zee---(in short) I am bored to death and wanna enjoy my new year you wanna tag along?? Ofcourse Zee.---is that a question even??? I wanna!! That's it---Plan fixed!!!

As per every trips we too faced dam too many problems!!

First of all is like everyone we were also confused wer to???
Whenever I feel like to relax or run away from something, my first preference is Mountains--!!! (If it have snow, then surely you can find me there) !!! So I suggested Manali!!!

The second problem arose with the first itself, its is cold can't we go somewhere else????? It took one week and three cancelled train tickets with some loss of money to convince Zee to finalize it as Manali..!!!

Third --- Bus ya train?? Fourth -- My bro and sis's honeymoon clash with our trip to same place!! Fifth--- My cousin's friend's marriage, Sixth -- Interview came on same day, Seventh -- One friend cancelled upon us!!  And so on and on...!!! But this post isn't regarding how we overcame all these so this much is enough regarding problems...!!!! The point is out of all these we made it to Manali, yes if we have a great partner and a mind to go, we can!!!


Reaching the bus stop, Can't express my anger here!!! We had a very bad feeling about the trip then!!! But when we reached the problems started peaking its head again in the form of hotel room!!! no Mr.Problem you are not welcome aboard....!!! Yeah he (you know who) understood, and he left without even making a noise after that!!! [ I should have done it before but sometimes we don't even know how strong we are]!!


It's 9 am get up Zee time to explore Manali!!! Give me sometime, zee said!!! Now what can I do??
Open the door t have a glimpse of outside. But is it cold or is it the first view of snow or is it something else? I dunno I couldn't control myself!!! I just wanted to stand there and stare at the place forever...!!!
But above all, I wanted Zee to see them too, yes sharing increases the feelings whatever it is...!!

We started taking snaps, without brushing itself :) :) what can I say perfect idiots can make anything their own!! Holding a cup of hot coffee and posing for auto camera in too many ways :) :) can help you relax sometimes more than you imagine (assume here we brushed before coffee)..!!!


Ohh no!! it's already 10:30 , break fast and need to explore the place too ( or take more pics from other places too) !!! got ready in 10 min ----now Ready steady Po!!!! Poooof, there is our taxi to take us to solang valley (now that Rohtang Pass is closed it is the snow peak point is here)!!! Shame on us missed it just for 3 days!! Feeling sad yet we started our journey to Solang, after stopping for breakfast at Manali city we reached the entrance within half an hour!! From there to where we had to get down took another half an hour cz of the traffic!! The first place where I see calm traffic, none in hurry, none fighting, nothing just waiting and listening to songs...!! Yeah I realized one fact, none in Manali is in hurry to reach anywer (Not like delhi, here everyone is busy even to smile)!! First time I started to feel good with the behavior of Manali people...!!! We had lots of fun there with skiing, felling down in it, throwing snow at each other, posing for 100s of pics (too many stories here but I expect zee to write about her sufferings), making snow man, playing with kids, etc etc but that's also not the point here...!!! After that we came back to Manali and went to a few local attractions and went back to hotel...had dinner and local wine and slept off!!! And that's end of first day!!


Next day :) Morning 8 am I am up....why on Earth?? I never ever get up in Delhi before 9 am and that too this cold weather!! I tried to sleep again and again but no, I can't find the reason why my sleep ditched me then!! I decided to go down and have a coffee then as I failed with all attempts to sleep. I went down, the weather was too good and I thought why not go for a walk?? I asked the hotel person and he seemed pretty careful to explain me wer to go and wer not to!! I told him I will just walk near by!! He stand there till I disappeared...!! I walked past a few and all wer happy to pass you a smile!! I was confused at first then I understood it's their culture to smile :) yes that feeling how can I explain??
okay, let's say i didnt wanna come back!!!

After 20 min of walking I came back and by that time I got my coffee and zee also got up!! We decided not to travel too much and enjoy the local places by walk....the Sun too wer on side, he was smiling a bit too much like the people there!! We planned to go to Hadimba temple and reached half way to Manu temple :) :) Zee was tired but I decided to walk their by myself on the way i got a cute girl as company and she showed me till the temple and she took my picture too ;) ;) even the small kids know how to behave with tourists!! From there we met a college group of Malayali's , Zee quoted "this is why people say we can see Malayali's tea stall in moon too"!! Visiting Hadimbad and Mnali city shopping made us late. We went to hotel by 4 for 4 pm bus but the traffic !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
10 min journey we had to be in 1:30hr traffic, one guy came walking with us and other one wait in traffic to drop us and other one waiting near by asking them to wait for us!!! Took 1 hr to reach bus stand by running and when trafiic moves  in our taxi....When I saw our taxi agent wer waiting there asking the bus people to wait for us, i dunno how happy I felt!! yes, I understood how much the people at Manali care for others.....no comparison with any other places!!

How much they helped us, I am not sure why?? Keeping the question in Mind, Manali I will come again and again, not because I want to know why you care and love people, it's because I really wanted to be there with you all...!! And this time not for 2 days or 10 day...I will spend as much time possible for me to spend, I will!!! I love you Manali!!!! I love you like you are my second home!!! Ya, that's exactly my point!! No sad feelings, no tensions, your smile took all away Manali!!! Will be back soon :)

The Feeling

It was 5:30 pm IST and I was working---may be first time on that day. I had to go for badminton but I didn’t want to, tough I will never say no to that. But today I dunno why that “feeling” came to me. I never felt that feeling in my mind. I thought of analyzing about the “feeling” but in a sudden my mobile start playing the song “Just gonna stand there and watch me burn---Well that's alright because I like the way it hurts”. Everybody started staring at me so I have to pick up the call tough I wish I could listen the song fully. Yes, this is R***---everybody know whom you are calling and who is calling, but still for formality I said so. It was my friend A****, calling me for badminton. I wish I could say her I am have work can’t come. But as always brain had won over heart. So I opened my mouth to say "no" but I said “yes” am on the way. Why? Why can’t you listen up b****???

When I reached the meeting place, I looked out everywhere but couldn’t find her. Then I got her call again that She got some workshop and will be late so I should wait. I should have listened to her. But look at my luck, I met some other friends of mine and went with to the court with them. On the way, we went to Lipton for a Tea there also; two dogs came near us fighting. I jumped out of the place with fear. The fear---or the feeling, came back to my mind again. Is there anything Bad going to happen?? Why I am feeling so?? Before am getting over with it, I got call from my guide; I couldn’t pick it up as I didn’t inform him that am going to play. So I didn’t pick it up. But the fear and the tension made me think all the way back. Am I doing right?

At this point at least my brain should have listened to my heart. No!! It didn’t. I got another opportunity while playing: She asked us “whoever completed the warm up exercises they can come and play”. But I didn’t complete the warm up but wait, because I was in real mood to play so I stopped and went to play.

But it is first time in my life I feel so tired in few minutes itself. And I wished to go back to my room and cry. But nooooo…..this time situation blocked me!!! You can’t go back now R***. Because something is on the way. Yes it happened. And now here am with my broken Leg!!! Only thinking about “the feeling”. What was it actually?? Was that a warning?? Will this be the same my grandpa faced before his------?????? Is there any such thing ???

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 R***

Airport@2am

I am trying to say some story here. So first of all to everyone who read this (May be one or two) I wanna say this "All characters in this story are just fictitious and does not reflect to any person alive or dead". No more comments about them :)


The story begin with a bad day for her (from this point we call her as Miss. X...oh no we can't call her because they are nt yet broken up...so we call her Miss. A). You might be thinking why this is a bad day for her. Wait wait am gonna tell the story (sshhh....there is nothing much to wait for u can guess....)..Yeah you are right of course if it is a story of a gal then the reason for her sadness will be fighting with her bf....:) :) (You won this case...next time i will not give a clue :-x so wer wer we?? yeah i got it....she is sad...now go on). They almost decided breaking up their 2 month relationship (yeah thats too long time...I know...why dnt u let me tell you the story???). The talked (yeah you can say they fought) around 9pm at night (IST--Indian Standard Time...coz both of them are in India...thats why am writing this) and she thought he won't be calling her anymore. Because they shouted at each other in such a way that....(ohhh why am wasting time on these unromantic things)....what ever u can guess!!! She was not doing anything...couldn't eat, sleep, go out with friends, etc etc (or even talk to me....is nt it so cruel?? why did i do...other than gossiping about her?? or saying that it was his mistake not hers....my intention was only to make her comfort thats it nothing else....did i do anything wrong??). But all my assumptions gone wrong!! He (from here onwards he is Mr.B i wanna call him Mr.----- but let it be like that) called her....that too at 1am...!!!!(that exclamation mark is of course not for couples....coz it is not a big deal for them....they can call each other even at 3.10am :/....oh thats different story....why u are always diverting me :-x...now the real story begins....jump to next para :P).


I thought I lost my sleep for the day....she was crying till then and I somehow managed to let her sleep.....then he called.....Grrrrrr!!!! If I could have gone to his hostel that time....I couldn't waste this much time for writing this.... :) [Even u could have done that...if u know am gonna write about it :P ]. Dunno what happened.....i didnt heard any shouting sounds....(was expecting that....tried to hear but only whispering sounds were coming out).....what happened to them....they are not at all behaving like they were before 5 min...it is like nothing happened between them.....(this is why I hate love birds ....sorry again diverted) and she came inside room and dressed up in 10 min and said am going to Airport...at 2am!!! (note the point...Airport @2am)!! I gave her a sleepy reply "okie" eventhough there were so many questions going through my head....Like is she going to pick someone there? or seeing someone?? Why she ddnt inform me about it before itself?? yeah right I was so anxious about it but hey how can I show her that I was listening to them till that time. So I thought that would have been accurate for this situation. And I can sleep peacefully for at least one hour now :) (Goodnight for me...one sec before saying goodnight I wanna conclude about this para for all those couple or non-couples who read this....the best thing you can do after a fight is to say "sorry" add on "tears"....this is an assumption at this point but I confirmed it after wards and hence proved...okie now I can sleep). 




You know what time she came back??? Can you Imagine??? It was 6am...my clock was ticking for me at 6am....(Here again a diverting the story...it is my clock ticking not my mobile...clock at 6am, alarm 1 in mob at 6:30am, alarm 2 at 7am...etc etc I usually gets up at 9am....coz Mess timing in hostel is till 9am...mostly I miss it...because my last alarm always cheats me). This time I couldn't control my anxiety!! I asked her why are you so late? where you went? who came? Why didnt you tell me before?? is everyone alrite?  bla bla bla....(all those who know me personally almost know how much this bla bla bla is...)!! She laughed at me....I got literally angry on her....she is laughing at me!!! But why??....She somehow managed to stop her laugh and told me they went to Airport not to pick anyone or seeing anyone....they went  there...just to have a coffee.....(NO COMMENTS....Dnt kill me...Kill them....IF YOU CAN))!! They went to Airport at 2am just for a coffee....what is special in Aiport coffee at 2am in Winter and that too after 20min Bike ride?? I love to be under my Rajaayi......and have a deep sleep......Is nt this irritating you???.... This question is only for those who are "single"!!![Next time when I went home I tried all those shops in Aiport for that special coffee...almost drank 5 cup coffee in an hour!!!...but none of them was better compared to those which we get in Lipton here...but who knows!!!]. She was explaining me about the Bike ride....How romantic it is to be with her BF in Bike in this cold in NH at night 2am.....I was just hmmming to her bla bla bla....coz I felt it is better to sleep and get up in the morning that it all was a dream....But it was disturbing me till now!!! Now am free....It might be disturbing you too!!!




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The END!!!!

Why Not??

This is a time to think something positive.I was surrounded with a lots of negative energies from all the sides. Still have...But I am not gonna give up...this time I have to prove myself that I can do anything....Anything.

Why not, I can do it..!!!!

All the best for your future

Sorry this is not a big post or anything.
I got this idea yesterday morning.

When I was talking to one of my friend, he told me good so you are now safe and continue working and " all the best for your future".

I was thinking the meaning of his words. I was hearing it from my past onwards.
When our college ya school life ends. Our classmate used to say so.

Dear all the best for your future. We might be thinking that they are saying this because of their concern in our future. But it is not so.

I was thinking thinking and thinking deeply (yup i have lil bit brain to think) and found out what the real meaning of this sentence.

In my words "All the best for your future" means "We are separating, now on there is no relation between us...am not gonna come into your life and help you again, live your life as the way you want"...!!!

Is nt it????

Don't you feel it any time????

What really love is???

I want to write something for you
But am not able to do so....

I want to love you as much as i can do
But am not able to do so....

So i tried to hate you...
Again i failed in that....

I dunno what i actually want
and what do you??

Yea may be I want to be yours
But you are not mine even when you are with me..!!!

What really love is???
I may find it out one day...!!!!
Then i will solve all those stupid questions..!!!!

Life is good ya bad???????

Life is good ya bad?????
Sometimes it will smile at us...
But sometimes it will throw stones to us...

Actually life is good ya bad???
Sometimes it will make us laugh....
But with in few seconds it make us cry...

Is life good ya bad????
Sometimes we get so many friends around us...
But next day it take all of them away from us...

LIFE IS GOOD YA BAD????