It was 5:30 pm IST and I was working---may be first
time on that day. I had to go for badminton but I didn’t want to, tough I
will never say no to that. But today I dunno why that “feeling” came to me. I
never felt that feeling in my mind. I thought of analyzing about the “feeling”
but in a sudden my mobile start playing the song “Just gonna stand there and watch me burn---Well that's alright because
I like the way it hurts”. Everybody started staring at me so I have to pick
up the call tough I wish I could listen the song fully. Yes, this is R***---everybody
know whom you are calling and who is calling, but still for formality I said
so. It was my friend A****, calling me for badminton. I wish I could say her I
am have work can’t come. But as always brain had won over heart. So I opened my
mouth to say "no" but I said “yes” am on the way. Why? Why can’t you listen up
b****???
When I reached the meeting place, I looked out
everywhere but couldn’t find her. Then I got her call again that She got some workshop
and will be late so I should wait. I should have listened to her. But look at my luck,
I met some other friends of mine and went with to the court with them. On the
way, we went to Lipton for a Tea there also; two dogs came near us fighting.
I jumped out of the place with fear. The fear---or the feeling, came back to my mind again. Is there anything Bad
going to happen?? Why I am feeling so?? Before am getting over with it, I got
call from my guide; I couldn’t pick it up as I didn’t inform him that am going
to play. So I didn’t pick it up. But the fear and the tension made me think all
the way back. Am I doing right?
At this point at least my brain should have listened
to my heart. No!! It didn’t. I got another opportunity while playing: She asked
us “whoever completed the warm up exercises they can come and play”. But I didn’t
complete the warm up but wait, because I was in real mood to play so I stopped and went to play.
But it is first time in my life I feel so tired in few minutes itself. And I wished to go back to my room and cry. But nooooo…..this time situation blocked me!!! You can’t go back now R***. Because something is on the
way. Yes it happened. And now here am with my broken Leg!!! Only thinking about
“the feeling”. What was it actually?? Was that a warning?? Will this be the
same my grandpa faced before his------?????? Is there any such thing ???
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R***
